Tomorrow, I leave. Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow. How on Earth did that happen??
I started packing yesterday, and today is just a bunch of little things - packing my carry-on, grabbing last minute brochures from the iSite, setting up Skype on Mum's iPad, figuring out how I'm going to fit all the crap that I use in two months in one little suitcase. I'm actually looking forward to the flight (that won't last long) - there are a bunch of movies that I'm hoping will be on the plane, and I'm looking forward to just blobbing for a few (read: 37) hours. No, I'm sure it'll be okay.
The last few days have been really weird. I've seen all my friends and most of my family for the last time before I leave, and just going around Wellington feels strange because I know I won't see it for a while. I can't decide whether it's a good thing or a bad thing that the city has started putting on the sun before we leave or not - a week ago I didn't think twice about not being here for the summer. Now, I see people swimming all the time, and just hanging out at the beach, and just enjoying the sun. I know what I'm going to be missing now, and that makes me sad. I've started realising that I won't see my room, or the people I love, or just all the little details of my life for two months. Which is scary.
But then I think of what I'm going to - a family who is willingly taking in some kid from the other side of the world who they don't know, sharing their Christmas and holiday with her... The snow, meeting new people, the Christmas markets, the school and the castles. It's so very romanticised in my head. In all honesty, I have no idea what to expect.
The big thing that I'm taking into this is determination. I have to be determined to always get the best out of everything - if plans change, or I get confused and don't know what's happening, or I get stressed or homesick, I just need to accept that this is my situation and I am going to make the best of it, whatever it takes. I will be determined to have fun, to experience new things, whatever happens.
Yup, I'm scared and sad at what I'm leaving behind. But I know that this trip is going to be the bravest thing I've ever done, and I'll remember it for the rest of my life. I am so, so lucky.
So I guess my next update will be... Potentially in Auckland or Heathrow, but probably I'll have arrived. Eek.
Alles Liebe,
Camille xx
Hey Camille,
ReplyDeleteIt's departure day and I just wanted to say have a wonderful,happy, safe and educationally rewarding trip to Germany.
We will be thinking of you often especially as we wonder Europe over Christmas. We are only several hours away, facebook tapping and instant texting (and the same time zone!) so if you ever need us for ANYTHING please just let us know and we'll look after you. A chat, a cry, a question, it doesn't matter, just get in touch. My cell is 027 2913016 if you can't get Madeleine and want us. Please feel free to use it any time.
If you can convince your famly (or come yourself) to come to the Nuremberg Christmas Markets between 19-21 Dec let us know and we'll find you.
We'll look after your mum here for you, before we go and when we get back.
Anyway, safe travelling, take care and enjoy this wonderful opportunity (with it's ups and downs) as much as you can.
Kerry and the Baughens xxx
Aren't we lucky to have such lovely friends :)
ReplyDeleteGlad you've arrived safely - and I hope you're asleep!
Thank you so much Kerry - you are so sweet :) Hope you're getting super excited for your trip! As you'll see in a second (real post coming soon!) I went to one of the smaller Christmas markets and they really are just fantastic :) xxx
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